Just go.

Im nothing. There's nothing special about me. About what kind of person i am , about who am i in some people's life. I just guess that im nothing.

Somehow they are something for me. Sometimes they were everything for me. Family , friends , God. I just cant imagine my life without them. Yes , i live but i cant survive. I laugh in front of them but im crying hard inside here. Deep down here. I struggle hard to win people's heart. Everyone's heart. But i lost my self while trying to catch you. Who are you ?

To keep survive is hard but its harder to see someone you used being closed to , treat you like a stranger. Its getting harder when you realize that your bestfriend is actually not a best friend. You find yourself lost at some point but you keep survive. For what? Its useless.

Sometimes you hope that you are heartless. So you dont have to take care of people's feelings and you just live in your own world. But as i said , it hurts. Its like someone is killing you inside but you still alive outside. And you have to listen about what people said. You obey them.

You realize that you cant leave them because they are only people that you have. You have to put aside your feelings , your heart , your ego , your emo just to give them your smile , your wealth and your everything. Inside here , you're dying. You're dying at an age that you shouldn't be. Yes , we dont live to please people but we did it. Congratulations , you are great.